Wednesday, July 08, 2009
after quite a number of interviews... i'm back to square 1. or maybe not.... cannot really decide if i should take up a job that i never ever thought of doing but yet, i do see the benefits in it. or should i just do something mundane.... =/ here i am. stuck in my own thoughts and cannot really decide.
i keep doing crazzzy things these days... and i need money.... i'm running low on it. HELP!
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Friday, July 03, 2009
do you know japanese cucumber is much crunchier than our normal cucumber. i think i can even get hooked to eating it. just peel off the skin, then take to chew. much healthier snack too.
yes.. i know it's been some time since my last entry. i know i'm being missed. but with two friends in shanghai, not being able to access blogger from there.. maybe no one comes here anymore.. except my angellic friend... who knows who she is.
i've been chilling, relaxing, meetin up with my beloved friends, hanging out and spending so much quality time with my bf, eating, drinking, slacking.... what else have i not done.. AH! i haven't start studying for my cfp. which is pretty late considering how early i always start. job search is a tedious process.. i hate interviews. i hate rejecting people.. i hate wearing those not pretty formal wears that i have. but i have to get a job. and my goal is to do so before my birthday. gosh.. i'm gg to be 22 soon.
have been cooking alot these days... we have JAPANESE day... KOREAN day, with the kimchi and all. we have normal 2 dish one soup day. u would think it's healthy and economical to eat in like tt. HEALTHY YES.. economical NO NO NO! salmon are expensive. and dun think kimchi is cheap either. because u always have to buy in bulk... and den put inside the fridge.. not as if my house got food in the first place. i even have to buy my own eggs to make sushi!
i want a job. but i'm hoping my boy get it first. =)
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Saturday, June 06, 2009
it's always the same scenes that make me cry when watching a show. it's always the same type of people and the actions they do. for instance, a devoted guy who goes all out for the girl he loves, only to be rejected time and again. his love is so pure, so innocent, no hidden agenda, genuine love and yet still gets rejected. and when he has lines like, "All I want is a chance to love you." or "Are you mad at me? Did i do something wrong by wanting to be by your side?" Simply very heart melting to me. I would be like tears streaming and scolding that stupid girl in front of the tv or laptop, why don't want him!!? The other guy no goood. Come on.. wake up to your senses! And the tears just won't stop. On top of that, I noticed English or Chinese movies with such lines, not as much impact as korean and japanese. Somehow, that language conveys more pain than the same lines in English and Chinese.
Another classic type would be telling a child that his/her parent is gone and the child would be innocently saying stuff like, "Is Daddy coming back to read me to sleep?" or "I miss daddy alot. He knows it right? He is always with me right?" errr, no exaggerations here, but i can feel the tears coming. And I noticed this type the dying party must be daddy. Maybe cos i m a girl, a daddy's girl. So i feel more for daddys, mummys not so, sorry to say.
And how can i forget to mention the death of lovers, and this one no gender. I can be weeping my heart out for a guy who lost his gf/wife or a woman who lost her bf/husband. Especially those, die innocently kind. Like just a normal citizen, accidentally involved in some gunshot. Good people die just like that without any prewarning and leaving their loved ones behind. The the standard lines like "Wake up! How can you leave me behind? You promised to take care of me for the rest of my life. How can you leave me!? or "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I should have trusted you. Please, open you eyes, look at me? I'm very sorry!" and many many many many more.
if i were prettier, taller and luckier, maybe i can try being an actress. i might be an all natural when it comes to crying scenes. They always say it's all about getting into the mood and thinking of things to trigger that mood. Well, I have mine already. Piece of cake to me.
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Wednesday, June 03, 2009
as i was packing my room after my trip to phuket, i realised once again, how much memories i share with you and it's stashed all over my room. and if i were to take a list and seriously list them down. i'm not even sure i would be able to cover all grounds.
i feel fat. gosh... maybe it's not a feeeling and that i m really fat! but nonetheless, holiday was fun. long awaited, no disappointments. everything is just great. now back in singapore, where sea, sun, sand become a luxury, it's time to sit down, do up a resume properly.. and start sending them all out. mummy made it point clear, she doesn't want to feed me anymore. =( no more tuitions... i'm currently income zero. how am i going to survive mans.
but i'll worry abt that later.... now, it's meet ups, planning stuff and going out!!!
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Wednesday, May 27, 2009
woke up at 4:30 am and studied till now, i haven't finish, but i'm feeling drained and saturated already. what i should be doing now is to read everything once true... try to get it cram into that puny brain of mine and float into the examinations hall, get that paper done and come out a free woman at 1pm.
and after that, everything is just going to be a breeze, literally, breeze, sun, sand, food and lots more. but right now, i'm very very far away from that breeze!
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Friday, May 22, 2009
i'm learning how to appreciate it more now. it's not the same anymore, when in the past, i come back after a paper, and plopped down and play games watch show all the way. now with this laggy computer of my dad's.... =( entertainment zero. not even a proper msn
i freaking need a laptop!!!
and i'm feeling so sucky abt the situation. when there's nothing i can do. i hate sensitivity. i'm boiling, filling up with grrrr.... i wanna eat CAKES, SASHIMI, FOOD FOOOD FOOOD!!!!!
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Cheers to more than half the ordeal survived and i'm still mentally sane. Cheers to 3 down, 2 to go. Cheers to the end and what awaits after it.
sometimes, trust is not a very easy to thing to do. cos u get disappointed after you trust. maybe that one person doesn't care as much as you do. otherwise, why the disappointment. the promise never came... oh well.. i'm glad i know now.
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